Sitting in the dark, I can’t forget
Even now, I realise the time I'll never get
Another story of the bitter pills of fate
I can’t go back again
I can’t go back again…

But you asked me to love you and I did
Traded my emotions for a contract to commit
And when I got away, I only got so far
The other me is dead
I hear his voice inside my head…

We were never alive, and we won't be born again
But I’ll never survive with dead memories in my heart
Dead memories in my heart
Dead memories in my heart

You told me to love you and I did
Tied my soul into a knot and got me to submit
So when I got away, I only kept my scars
The other me Is gone
Now I don't know where I belong…

We were never alive, and we won’t be born again
But I’ll never survive with dead memories in my heart
Dead memories in my heart
Dead memories in my heart
Dead memories in my heart

Dead visions in your name
Dead fingers in my veins
Dead Memories in my heart
Dead memories in my heart
Dead memories in my heart
Dead memories in my heart

So Last night I went to Homecoming with the woman I should have gone with last year and I finally fulfilled my promise. Honestly the dance itself was no where near as good as last years was. I had a good time regardless and I met a new person who was pretty sweet and made up with bray. Well for one I actually danced. The second thing was I had a pretty sweet dance party with Bray and Trav. I also got to spend some quality semi-alone time with Iesha. But afterwards we went to Denny's and then had the most amazing time together after and if you want to know specifics ask me in a note and I may tell you.

I have reached 1000 page views.
Yay? Im not quite sure why thats exciting but people seem to get excited over it. Personally I didnt even think I would get to 100 never mind 1000 but w/e.

So dA it has been awhile. Lots is going on. Well for one I love Iesha Lillian Holland. She is the woman for me. She recently had the cutest baby boy in the world...they are everything i couldve ever asked for. i love them all so much. so today iesha got her kitten finally but shes at my house because im kitten sitting while ieshas at the cape. Also today i got to see my amazing sister [link] shes the best sister i could ask for ^^. anyway. i got a new job at UPS and i start on august 4th. ummm i cant really think of much else but umm comment me if you have anything else you want to know

to those who i targeted in my last journal.

I would like to say that I honestly do not know what came over me and Im sorry for not believing you about her. I would like to apologize. Miss Bel, if you read this, this is more directed at you as ive already apologized to Iesha. Im sorry i just ignored you and got mad at you for trying to look out for my well being. I was a jerk, an asshole, and just plain rude to you. It was out of line and uncalled for. Now i dont expect you to accept this apology, honestly i dont think i deserve it to be accepted. But if you can find it in your heart to accept it I would love to be friends with you again.